Meraki is probably the word passion in verb. People said, the works that we do with and without passion will be different. Happiness is always found in doing something with passion, vice versa.
Pondering with thoughts, a 20ish woman asking herself against the mirror, “Are you finally doing something with your heart?”. She smiled, nodding her head as she went to work.
A story about my struggling against life time crisis last year.
Life time crisis: the time when you questioned yourself of who you are and what you are going to do with your life
Common situation you face after graduation : what kind of works i should do?
At this month, last year. Job vacancies are all over the group chats. Big company with big chance of having great salary is what the fresh graduate searching for. I was doing my best to have a settled job, wishing that at least i can help my parents and other people.
Been a few months after graduation, the chat notifications are full with congratulating mesaages for my friends. Many of them are accepted in big companies, that i’ve been dreaming of, but i never, got there.
Uncertainty floods my heart. Heavy breathing, tears keep overflowing as I pray. Doubting myself for not having enough skills. Doubting God for not letting me have a job.
Trying to stand once again when falling few times, reassure myself that God will always give the best thing for me.
One day, I remember being an asshole, half-assed studying, when I have to study the subject that I always hate. At the same time, I remember being a completely different side of me, searching for every details in the subject just so I can pass the test.
Scratching my head, asking to myself, “Huh? I already know the answers but why do I keep being stubborn?”
God makes me realize something in the middle of stressful days of finding a job.
I remember of praying countless times, “Let me have a job that I can pour my heart into it.”
Then it just comes to me. To find a job that I always avoid because of not-so-great salary. I know from the start, lol it’s even my purpose of studying pharmacy; become a community pharmacist, the job that I always avoid, is the job that I always love.
I don’t really have specific passion in the beginning. But as time goes on, I realize that I’m truly happy when I can help someone with the knowledge that I learn.
I always know. My heart knows, but I choose to ignore it. Then God leads me to the path where my calling is.
My definition of a perfect life will be myself having a job that I truly love, the job that I can pour my heart into it. Because, you know, a person doing her/his passion is sexy 😂
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